10:10pm
I am distraught. I have lost my best friend. I have lost her because of love. Not another, but my own.. how wrong does that sound??
I shall move on, slowly..but I will carry hope with me on my journey. I will put it in my pocket to keep it safe..it will not be tarnished by the words of the so-called wise..and every so often I will take it out and feed it with a tear, and a smile. I will polish it with a memory so that its glow may rival that of the sun. It will be happy to come with me. She will come back. and I shall cast hope from my body like a flattened stone over a pond..for I will need it no longer. The bond that has held me to it will be dissolved by her returning presence. She will be there, and the stone will sink, never to be seen again in her shadow.

10:35pm
Well, I'm back from NYC. I was there for the weekend with my net buds. Very interesting city they have there. Diverse population, that's for sure. Had my first Starbucks coffee outside of a barnes and noble :) Times square, was, bright. I'll have to go back to see the rest. I didn't get to see everything.

Things have been ok. The Bloomsburg fair is this week. I might go, or I might hang out with rebecca this weekend, or maybe both! It was our 1 year aniversarry on Monday..of knowing each other, that is. I'm so lucky I have her.

I haven't taken my webcam back yet..i'm lazy. My computer is pretty much back to normal, except the remote control and the USB module dont seem to work with win98..i can live with that for now.

10:44am
Yes, it's been over a month, I know. I can never get into the habit of writing stuff, sue me!

I'm dead tired. Was up till 4 am screwing with Windows (which is now windows 98 from my old windows 95, version 'ancient'...not by choice mind you) I really fudged it up trying to fool windows into thinking it was something it's not (a good OS perhaps?) silent revenge from the sucky OS I pressume..when you reboot and the computer shuts down cold in the middle of starting windows 15 times in a row, i'm allowed to scratch my head a little..genius or not...and my new web cam (which was the cause of the whole war) that has the shittiest quality you've ever seen. something must be amiss..more work tonight I suspect. Heh, that sounds like Yoda.

My Seinfeld page has been doing very well as of late (not that it never did)..but I get these hugely thankful and overzealous emails (i'm not complaining) You gotta love when an email starts off with "Greetings my master"

Work news? hmm, anything mentionable? Trying to migrate 100+ domains from Netscape to Apache web server..i like to live dangerously.

OH! You'll be happy to know I FINALLY took "The Godfather" back after it being overdue for almost 3 weeks. Charissa was kind enough to point out I could have bought it for cheaper than the late fees will cost. Maybe, well, ok, definately, but that just wouldn't be me! Never go against the family, hon :-)

Joelie has a trip to NYC planned for the end of the month. And they'll hopefully be a surprising turnout. I asked rebecca but she could only make it if it was Sun-Mon, which it isn't. *sigh*
If Rager comes, I'll be really escastic though! I'm escastic already!

Ok, i like rain, but this Floyd thing is ridiculous. I go into work, it's raining, I come out, it's raining. So much for a change of scenery. Yeah, i know we need the rain, but can someone please spread it out a bit!? Humor me, we're not fish!

"I was just wondering if you'd come along, hold up my head, when my head won't hold on" ringin' in my ear. Dave was on Charlie Rose last night and did a little solo performance. It was wonderfully sung. Very nummy.

4:22pm
Rented "Shakespeare in Love" and "The Godfather" last night. Yes, I never saw The Godfather. I didn't watch either yet.

Worked on a database project today..was frustrating for a while, but I think I got it straightened out.

Had lunch with Mom and Dinah..got Broad St. deli, same as I had yesteday.

I think their starting the Seinfeld syndication today from the 1st episode. Must get home early, else i'll be waiting 190+ episodes to see it again. And that would SUCK

Talked to Beth today..I love talking to her, she's so coooooolll (her words, not mine). Even if it is only a breakfast relationship and she calls me a boy, even though I'm almost 4, count 'em, 4 years older than her. She's going back to VA next week..I'm not happy. You know that feeling when you talk to someone, and even though you dont see them, if they're that much closer, it matters, and it feels a whole lot better. Some things you can't control i guess.

2:35pm
Talked to rebecca last night on ICQ, yay! I wish she was on every day and could just tell me about her day and I could tell her about mine, and it could be like I was there (sorta). I have to go see her and spend time with her..soon.

Listened to Dave and Tim in the shower yesterday, 1-24-99, watched You've Got Mail before bed again..gawd, I keep falling asleep before the end.

Got my Elton John shirt on today that Charissa bought me at Hot Topics, yay! And I didn't even wear a hat today..haha, it was so funny, Alan (our web designer) goes to me this morning "did you get your hair cut?" and i'm like, yeah, about a month ago. If that tells you how often I wear hats!

1:43pm
Today on Cygnus Live..children, and the fucking loser son of a bitch of a idiot rat bastards of LA that run in places where children are and go on shooting sprees..my gawd, this is getting bad. As safe as my town is I'm still afraid. You really never know, where, or when. I dont even want to bring a child up in this world if this progresses where I think it's progressing

Oops, lunch is here..more later

4:53pm
Fortune cookie from lunch, "Life is a tragedy for those who feel and a comedy for those who think". Sooooo true.

10:54am
YES, I am alive..the reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated. Ummmmmmm, Mark Twain!

Charissa came down for lunch and stuff yesterday. Went to see the poopadoos (ferrets) at the mall. Must...get...another...one. Looked at rollerblades. Cyggie on wheels, look out! Clear the streets!

Went to see The Matrix last night with Mr. Latella..it just gets better and better every time I see it. Take the red pill. A bad truth is much better than a good lie. Some things from that movie just hit so hard. Like where the agent says that humans aren't mammals, because mammals form an equilibrium with their environment..that we are like viruses, because in order to thrive we spread to areas and multiple, consuming every natural resource. Wow.

Blair Witch project viewing put on hold, argh! I WILL see it yet. Shakespeare In Love on video this week, YES!

Script work at work. I absolutely love writing little util scripts. And now with "remote db manipulation through linux" capability! *grunt*

Starting doing RealVideo of seinfeld episodes. Should be real cool. Providing NBC doesn't give me no B.S. about copyrighting. Oh man, had this great idea! When there's commercials in between shows or movies on TV. Have a 20 second timer on the last commercial so you know when the show/movie is gonna start back up again. I HATE editing commercials out, can you tell?

Saw DMB on Sunday in Hartford. What a small theatre! Makes for good seats everywhere. They were on. Although disappointing encore for last show of the tour. I thought of Elisa when they played Say Goodbye. Her favorite song, you know.

I wonder how rebecca is. all the time. I wonder if her email is disabled till the semester starts. That would suck.

1:30pm
I felt like a cappuchino this morning. Made a pit stop at Mc'ds They got a little more creative with their cups!..only took them 10 years!

Not much going on here at work. Fixed a website. ASPs do not run on linux web servers! Waiting for Rebecca to call about dorney! I have to call to get a haircut too, hopefully tonight..bleh, i hate long hair. Can't wait to get it dyed PLUM on friday. I need a change. I want to call rebecca..i dont know how long to give her to call and I dont want to miss her. Double meaning *sigh*

I listened to U2 "The Joshua Tree" about 5 times already this morning. I keep forgetting my CD mag in my car.

Should hit lunch, but it's a tad too early for me. But I'm hungry.